There's a piece of research I think about often here. Behavioral scientists studied how people spend and found that most of us fall somewhere on a spectrum they called tightwads and spendthrifts. Tightwads feel too much of what the researchers named the "pain of paying," so they spend less than they themselves actually want to. Spendthrifts feel too little of it, so they spend more than they want to.

The detail that matters most is this: neither group is happy with how they handle money. Both are living at a distance from what they'd genuinely choose. And when the researchers looked at who was most content, it wasn't the savers, and it wasn't the spenders. It was the people in the middle, perhaps because they were the ones who weren't at war with themselves.

When you start the company, get the promotion, or sign the dream client, one of the first things you feel is relief. Underneath the relief is an idea, quiet and almost too good to say out loud: finally, you get to live the life you've been building toward.

Maybe that's the house or the car. Maybe it's the time and the money to travel to the places you've loved since you were a kid. Maybe it's something simpler and harder: the ability to rest, to take care of yourself, to take care of the people you love, and to finally pay attention to your own health.

The relief flashes through you each time you take a step closer.

But do you ever actually get there? Or is it just a flash?

When you start the company, get the promotion, or sign the dream client, one of the first things you feel is relief. Underneath the relief is an idea, quiet and almost too good to say out loud: finally, you get to live the life you've been building toward.

Maybe that's the house or the car. Maybe it's the time and the money to travel to the places you've loved since you were a kid. Maybe it's something simpler and harder: the ability to rest, to take care of yourself, to take care of the people you love, and to finally pay attention to your own health.

The relief flashes through you each time you take a step closer.

But do you ever actually get there? Or is it just a flash?