Over the next few months, I'm releasing a 12-session series designed to dismantle these patterns at the subconscious level.

We'll rewire:

• Self-erasure for safety (shrinking, staying too long, fearing retaliation)

• Externalized authority (needing validation from outside)

• Distorted relational gravity (being drawn to withholding, dominant people)

• Chronic vigilance (hyper-perfectionism, over-responsibility, inability to rest)

Understanding the Pattern Isn't Enough

Your conscious mind gets it. You've analyzed the pattern. You've talked about it in therapy.

But the part of you that's actually running the self-sabotage? That part lives in your subconscious.

And your subconscious doesn't respond to insight. It responds to pattern interruption.

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The old operating system says: "I heal. I improve. I work on myself. Repeat."

It's the identity of someone who is always becoming.
Always in process.
Always one insight away from finally being enough.

And listen, this way of being got you here, and it made you successful. It kept you safe when chaos was the norm and proving yourself was survival.

Yet now, now you're accomplished, stable, and perhaps you've built the life… And as a result, this identity doesn't know what to do when there's nothing left to prove.

So it invents problems. It finds new things to fix. It mistakes intensity for aliveness and rest for laziness.

It keeps you in healing mode when you're ready to live.

Last year, I found myself in the middle of the Christmas season... and I simply didn’t care.

Not because I'm a grinch, but because I was overwhelmed. When your nervous system is maxed out, you go numb. You can't feel the magic because you're too busy just trying to survive the season.

The Grinch couldn't feel Christmas until his nervous system calmed down enough to stop looking for threats. Only then could his heart grow three sizes. Only then could he feel connection, care, warmth.

Even when the nervous system no longer has something to chase, that doesn’t mean it hasn’t yet learned how to just be. The tension that once created purpose dissolves, and unless something new, and something nourishing, fills that space, the mind mistakes peace for nothingness. But this “nothing” is not emptiness. It’s space, and it’s the exact space where new creation begins.

When the nervous system no longer has something to chase, it hasn’t yet learned how to just be. The tension that once created purpose dissolves, and unless something new, and something nourishing, fills that space, the mind mistakes peace for nothingness. But this “nothing” is not emptiness. It’s space, and it’s the exact space where new creation begins.

Sometimes I’m asked: “Who does the hypnotist see for treatment?”

And while I’m always happy to refer clients to colleagues and teachers I deeply admire, sometimes the most transformative work doesn’t come from a session at all, rather it comes from the media we let into our minds.

Books, podcasts, videos, these all serve as mirrors and mentors for me. They teach what I don’t yet know, affirm what I already believe, or lovingly challenge what I once assumed to be true.

Below are the works that shaped me most this year, the ones that stretched, soothed, and reminded me what’s possible.

When the nervous system no longer has something to chase, it hasn’t yet learned how to just be. The tension that once created purpose dissolves, and unless something new, and something nourishing, fills that space, the mind mistakes peace for nothingness. But this “nothing” is not emptiness. It’s space, and it’s the exact space where new creation begins.

When you’re used to helping, fixing, caring, or doing, having something, or someone, simply show up ready to meet you can feel destabilizing, almost like a quiet loss of identity.

Because if you’re not the one holding everything together, then who are you now?

When you’re used to helping, fixing, caring, or doing, having something, or someone, simply show up ready to meet you can feel destabilizing, almost like a quiet loss of identity.

Because if you’re not the one holding everything together…

who are you now?

There’s a particular kind of shame that hides in the most capable people.

The ones who always show up, who make it look easy, who rarely, if ever, ask for anything in return.

It’s the shame of needing, of wanting, of being seen as “too much.”

Can you remember the moment you internalized that you were a burden?

Because so often, it was many small moments that started when we were young. And it’s not necessarily that we were surrounded by “bad” people, but rather, it was small moments that we internalized, moments when our parents or caretakers may have been too busy, too overwhelmed, too broken themselves to give what we were asking for.

In those moments, they were simply limited, and our child mind didn’t understand. Instead, it made a decision that felt like safety:
If I don’t ask for anything, I can’t be disappointed and they won’t be upset.
If I give instead of ask, maybe they’ll stay, and maybe they’ll even be happy.

And just like that, the pattern of over giving begins.

Every cycle in nature depends on balance. The tide moves in and out. The heartbeat contracts and expands. The breath flows both ways. And yet somewhere along the way, many of us learned that receiving wasn’t safe. That it came with a price, a hook, or a hidden expectation.

Maybe you learned that when someone gave to you, they later used it against you. Maybe “help” came with control. Maybe “love” meant debt. And so, you became the strong one. The giver. The one who never asks, who never needs, who never inconveniences anyone.

But cutting yourself off from receiving doesn’t make you strong; it makes you disconnected from life’s rhythm.

She was exhausted. Always caring for others, always giving more than she had, always managing every detail because she thought “no one else could.”

And yet, she longed for someone to show up for her. To support her. To let her lean back and rest.

The unfortunate truth is that when you give and give without balance, you don’t actually attract more generosity back. You often attract the opposite: people who take. And no matter how much you give, your own needs remain unmet.

I didn’t see it for years, because like so many givers, I told myself, “It’s fine, I don’t need anything back.”

The child brain doesn’t interpret life events through the same lens of logic and context that we as adults do. As children, we are meaning-making machines. We store every experience as evidence of “what love means” or “what I need to do to be safe and cared for.”

Most of us live in the larger expanse of what we don’t even know we don’t know, which is the uncharted territory of possibility and growth. Feeling lost or insufficient isn’t failure; it’s a sign that you’re ready to move into that new unknown.

Hypnosis isn’t just about rewiring thoughts.

It’s about creating a safe, sacred space to process what’s been buried, to feel what was never felt, and to unfreeze what got stuck.

Because emotions are not the problem.

It’s actually unprocessed emotion that creates stagnation, sadness, and sometimes, misery.

And here’s what I believe: The tree that grows the tallest also grows the deepest roots.

The more grounded you are in your ability to feel, the more resilient and alive you become.